Good morning/noon/afternoon/evening/night, watchers!
So I've posted a new chapter of Soul Fire at last. What shall I do next? Another chapter? That's an option. It's not the only option, though. Those few who bother to read my journals (or any of my mad ramblings) may remember my intentions to expand my horizons and look at working on something new. I spent the last few weeks working on Soul Fire chapter 46 because I wanted to get it finished and out of the way. Now that I'm between immediate projects, I have a decision to make.
A tough decision.
Now, I don't want to quit Soul Fire. It's the only thing I can do some real writing on at the moment. Any new project would take a lot of time and planning to get off the ground, and I need something to keep my writing cravings at bay. I mean I like planning, but I have to write something properly every now and then. I'm afraid I'd forget how if I didn't.
Problem is, I've never tackled two projects at the same time before. I may be inclined to ignore one and focus exclusively on the other. If I was better organised, I could perhaps work on each project in shifts, but I don't know if that would work. And I've barely started this journal and I'm already rambling.
Let's get back on track, shall we? In my last journal, I asked your opinions on what I should do as a second project. At least three people recommended that I write a 'practice' original work - something I've built from the ground up, with a clear beginning, middle, and end, but not intended to be published. That idea appeals to me quite a bit. What I lack, though, is an idea to build upon. I spent a sold week, after writing that journal, trying to come up with an idea which could really hook me. Something simple enough that it would be easy to write, but not so cliched that it would bore me. I found I have a bit of a problem in that regard. I don't really know anything about writing something that isn't fan-fiction.
Oh, I can come up with ideas. I can roll along with them for a while. But I soon discovered that every idea I had simply would not work as a written story. The ideas I was coming up with felt more like comics, anime, graphic novels, or something like that. I began to fear that I was too deeply rooted in the genre.
Now clearly part of that problem stems from exposure to the medium. I still watch anime every day during my lunch break, and I read the latest Naruto chapters every week online. My head is stuck in manga/anime land. You'd think that the solution would be to read some damn books, but I have a problem there, too.
My standards for literature are impossible. And I mean truly IMPOSSIBLE! I hate everything I read. Part of the problem is that I read from an author's perspective. As I read, I find myself picking the story apart. I can see the author's thought process. I can decipher why they wrote specific scenes, why they included certain characters, how they've structured the plot, etc. I'll be thinking "Oh, they sent the character there in order to set up this plot hook," and "ah, this must be the 'dragon' character archetype," or "yeah, this'll be the scene where the big plot twist is revealed."
And damn does it make a story boring! I blame you, TV Tropes!
Another problem is that I find very few stories that I consider worth my precious time. A few years back, when I started having this silly little authoring dream, I picked up a few novels for inspiration. I specifically picked novels from long running sagas (preferably the first volume) because I figured they would surely be good to read if they had kicked off such a popular series. I began with the first book of the Wheel of Time series. And I hated it. I found the plot to be terribly cliched, the characters were cardboard cut-outs, the events were pointless and strung together flimisily, the romance was entirely tacked on, and the ending felt like a cheezy rush job.
(SPOILER) Seriously, it's just "The hero teleports to where the bad guy and his army is, he goes all shiny and blasts them all to oblivion with the poorly defined super powers that he suddenly and unexplicably gains control over because ... well because the plot required him to, I guess!"
(/SPOILER) That was a tremendous waste of time, but I was overseas and I needed something to read on the planes (all six of them) so it was going to be wasted time anyway. Next I tried another fantasy adventure novel. I won't even dignify it by trying to remember its name. I got about half way through and dumped it, mainly because of the villain. The mistake the author made here was in his attempt to force the reader to hate the villain. He tried too damn hard. I began to hate the villain so much that I didn't want to read about him anymore. I didn't want to see the hero defeat him, I just wanted him to not be in the story! Also, the events were boring, the setting felt like a two year old created it, and there was rape.
Then I tried some sci-fi novel. It was the worst yet. I think I managed to drag my way through about three chapters. The writing style was agonising! It was just so hard to read! The author was using these horribly long, droning sentences to describe utterly unimportant settings and explain things that didn't need to be explained. He went off on huge tangents, so long that you completely forgot what the scene was supposed to be about. And the villain was fast becoming as cartoonishly evil and over-the-top as the last one. So I dumped that, too.
Problem is, all three of those stories were supposed to have been written by acclaimed authors with loads of fans and long running sagas to their names. If their stoires were the best on offer, what kind of kitty litter was the rest of the stuff on the shelf? I couldn't bear the thought of wasting any more of my time and money, so I gave up! The only things I've read since are the Harry Potter books. I read all of them, and I can see the point, but I could go on criticizing them for hours, too!
My standars are just too damn high! ... Um, what were we talking about again?
Great, I've been ranting.
Ah yes! I was talking about my problems with breaking out of fan-fiction. Now to get back on track, I really,
really want to get beyond fan-fiction. I want to be a full time professional author! That is my life's dream! But I can't do that with fan-fiction. I
NEED to break out!
While I was writing Soul Fire chapter 46, I began to have some serious doubts about where I was going to be able to take the story. As I said to somebody in the comments
(SPOILERS AGAIN sort of), the way Hitomi badmouthed Naruto in the first scene was almost like my views on everything that is wrong with Naruto the character and why I don't like him as the hero of the story
(Sort of SPOILERS OVER). In truth, Naruto has never been my favourtie character, and there are plenty of reasons I don't think he makes a good hero. Note please that this is not the reason I treat him so badly in my story. As I've been trying to explain in my comments
(MORE SPOILERS) the attacks from Hitomi are a plot hook intended to provide an obstacle to the Naruto Hinata relationship
(SPOILERS END for now). The real problem is that Naruto is just not the kind of hero I want to write about.
I want to write about a smart hero who solves his problems with wits, not by bashing his head against them. I want to write a story that really gets the reader thinking. I want complicated plot threads, mysteries, difficult moral decisions. And most of all, I want a character who grows and develops into my kind of hero, not somebody else's.
Now I could try to force Naruto to change into something vaguely like the kind of hero I want ... but even the thought of doing that feels sickening. The real Naruto is not the hero I want, and with the character's 'foundation' already laid, he never will be. I can't rip up the Naruto character and remake him in my own graven image. The result would not be the Naruto that you (and Hinata) love. If I continue with Soul Fire, my version of Naruto will eventually change, perhaps quite dramatically, but he will have to remain predominantly Naruto.
So to bring this journal to something vaguely like a point, I'm going to ask you a few questions.
1: What kind of original story do you think I should write?
2: How much do you think I should change Naruto?
3: Can you recommend any novels that you think I won't absolutely loathe?
For the first question: I'm looking for a basic plot hook here. Something you could describe in one sentence. I just want all of you to bombard me with ideas. I'm not looking for anything too complicated or bizarre. I want this to be quick and easy to write, remember. Don't worry at all if you think your ideas sound stupid or cliched. Anything you say could potentially inspire me. I am asking for any and all ideas. I probably won't pick one specific idea that you give me - I just want to use them to stimulate my imagination. I repeat: throw anything at me! Just as long as it's not too complex or weird or offensive.
For the second question: I know there are pleny of AU fics out there where Naruto is completely different. I've read a few and I never really liked any of them. If I make major changes to my version of Naruto, I want them to be as realistic and natural as possible. I don't want them to feel forced. I won't completely flip his character and make him a genius or anything. I just want your opinion of how far you would tolerate my changes. Tell me where I should draw the line. Should be be somewhat smarter? More sensitive? Less obsessive about his dreams? Less obsessive about Sasuke? Wittier? Less perverse? More chivalrous? Moodier? Happier? More easy going? I'm just throwing out traits at random here. Feel free to do the same.
For the third question: I don't know if I'll actually read anything that you reccomend, I just wanted to have a third question in there. If you do recommend something, please give me a few details. No spoilers of course, just a bit more than "I like this story". At the very least, tell me the genre(s) (fantasy/sci-fi/mystery/adventure/romance/etc.), the target audience (children/teen/adult), and tell me a little something that you really liked about it. No spoilers, again, just mention an aspect that you remember most about it.
Regardless, let me hear what you think. Your comments
will have an effect.
Bye for now. I need sleep.